18th Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

Hey! Hihihi this post is for 18th Ramadhan. Wait, I can't recall a thing. Hahaha astaghfirullahalazim. I can't remember what I did. Cause the morning went well as usual. Alhamdulillah. Ohh I went to KTM Subang to buy tickets for Hari Raya yeayyy! Luckily, the tickets are still available on Wednesday. But I failed to buy ticket for Alip haha cause Alip finished his exam on Friday. Friday is the peak day. 

In the afternoon, I had a meeting with my research group with all our lecturers. It was such a headache when you have many lecturers. Many lecturers = Many opinions. -,- They fought among themselves most of the time and at last, we didn't understand most of the things hahaha. Some of the things in the survey that lecturers asked to change, we didn't change cause we thought it's more confusing.

For iftar that day, I decided to have iftar at surau. Luckily, hajar joined me too! Yeayy! The more, the merrier. Hihi. And there were also orphans came there. I felt awkward at first because I thought it's like not proper to join them, macam aku ni menyibuk. Haha. But then, we met Kak Bisyri and Kak Nadia. And everything went well je. Rasa awkward sbb maybe we are the only anak dara yg ada kat situ. Kot. Ohh the best activity is washing dishes together!!!! Hahahaha. I felt connected to people. Tak rasa macam diri ni seorang. Gitu. And I miss to wash dishes with my cousins, Kak Lia and Afeefa wuwuwu T.T Can't wait to go to Rumah Opah where we could meet after long time.

Tarawih also went well. Ohh. Did I tell you guys how much I hate reminiscing my past time? Times when I commit sins, a lot! On that day, I learned something! My past time, my memory is not that bad, even it's a bad thing, but it's actually not bad to reminiscing them back! Why? Because if it's not due to those past times, those bad memories, I wouldn't be able to seek Him, I wouldn't be able to cry and plead and pray by my deepest part of my heart. Kan? I tried not to remember my past time, but then I didn't feel that connection, I didn't cry (I can't even cry), I just felt fine, I didn't feel afraid. 

When I didn't feel afraid, that is dangerous! So, the easiest way to scared myself of Him, is by reminiscing my sins, my bad past time. Lessons learnt!

Till the next post! Bye :)

"Layakkah Dia mengambil anak perempuan dari yang diciptakan-Nya dan memberikan anak lelaki kepadamu?

Dan apabila salah seorang di antara mereka diberi khabar (dengan kelahiran anak perempuan) yang dijadikan sebagai perumpamaan bagi Allah Yang Maha Pemurah, jadilah wajahnya hitam pekat kerana menahan sedih (dan marah).

Dan apakah patut (menjadi anak Allah) orang yang dibesarkan sebagai perhiasan sedang dia tidak mampu memberi alasan yang tegas dan jelas dalam pertengkaran.

Dan mereka jadikan malaikat-malaikat (hamba-hamba) Allah Yang maha Pemurah itu sebagai jenis perempuan. Apakah mereka menyaksikan penciptaan (malaikat-malaikat) itu? Kelak akan dituliskan kesaksian mereka dan akan diminta bertanggungjawab" (Az-Zukhruf:16-19)

Love,

Me, Myself and God.

17th Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

Haa. Yesterday was 17th Ramadhan. Fuhh so close to the last 10 days wehhh. Berdebor! Hahaha Don't know for what to be nervous for. Maybe sebab niatnya nak all out 10 hari terakhir tu. We try lah kan we try! 

Ohh hahaha my girls and I reached home at around 2.30a.m! Hahaha anak dara apa lah semua. Fathin and I prepared a bottle of water for sahur cause we're definitely gonna be sleepayyhhhh! And yes, we do! We had our sahur on our bed. Hahaha. Then, I got back to sleep, so I didn't do tahajjud. but I didn't feel regret cause I've already do 20 tarawih last night, so that's fine. After performing subuh prayer, most of my girls get back to sleep. I was about to do the same, but soon as I laid my body onto my bed, I spoke to myself "psstt nanti menyesal haaa haaa" hahaha I jumped out from my bed kakaka. 

So, I started doing things to prevent the sleepiness that I had. Godek godek laptop. 

After performing dhuha prayer in the afternoon, then the sleepiness can no longer be resisted. So, I took a nap until zohor. Luckily it was before zohor. Once I woke up, I felt so fresh and NOT REGRET! Hahaha. 

I joined Nik, Anis and Kak Melur watching KL Gangster, cause I don't want to have accidental nap. Haha. I didn't watch that much. I only sat besides them and did something on research and also surveying train tickets to go back for Hari Raya yeeayy! So basically, I will go back home by train since Addin doesn't have car that time to pick us up. And I'm going back with Syamil, then Addin will pick us at Batu Gajah. Then, we probably could have Homies Time! Hahaha, rindu melepak dengan diorang. 

In the evening, as a celebrity (flips wideshawl), I had an invitation for iftar at Ikram. Hahaha. I went there with Nadia and Ros. Kak Ida picked us up. Again, makan dalam talam hoyeahhh!!!! I really love the idea of eating like this. Cause everyone will cooperate to finish the meal. Semangat sikit ah nak makan. 

Everything went well. And I met Kak Najibah. Hahaha the funny thing when seeing Kak Najibah is that we seem to have messages to be given to each other, but our lips are just locked! Speechless. Through her eyes and her smile, I know she had something to tell me but they seem can't be spoken out. Same goes to me. I just wanted to tell her, that I love seeing and meeting her, but I only could smile instead of saying it out loud! Hahaha. Betul lah tu orang kata the eyes could speak everything. So, Kak Najibah and I ni macam ada some kind of telepathy, we communicate through hearts, presenting out through our eyes and smile. Kakaka poyo je ayat ptuihh! Hahaha

I love the short tazkirah by Kak Munirah (if I'm not mistaken and deaf), she told us about the power of doa. ....emmm dangg I forgot the content hahahaha. I should write it down yesterday. Ohh haa yeahh Allah is really near to us. Like reallllyyy near. If we have the effort to seek for His guidance, He will definitely guide us closer. If we move 1 step to Him, He provides us more steps to Him. Gitu lahh kot. Yup, I do believe the power of doa. I break up with Izzemal cause of my doa (one of the factor). I pray for the best of us. I pray for the strength if I have to let Izzemal go, cause at that time I really feel lost. I don't know whether I should keep hanging on or I should moving on. Allah do pick the best for me. hihi. Tak habis habis pasal Izzemal kan? Yup tahu. Bukan aku tak move on tau, I do move on. But I really love this one lesson. I've learned many things due to this thing. due to Izzemal. I learned a lot! 

And then, seniors gave tips of studying to those who are going to have professional exam soon uuuu~ The intersting part is Kak Fatin taught us 3 stages of self development; self-centered, people-centered, and Allah-centered. Self-centered ni biasanya in kids. What they see, what they have, what they own, they believe its theirs even if it's not theirs actually. People-centered is when you start seeing reality and accepting people around you, and also prioritize and start considering people rather than yourself. Allah-centered? In everything that apply. If you're people centered, you do nice things to people for the sake of Allah, you're reaching that Allah-centered. Priority on Allah :)

That's all for today I guess. Till the next post! :D

Today's tafsir;

"Dan apabila mereka mendengar perkataan yang buruk, mereka berpaling daripadanya dan berkata; 'Bagi kami amal-amal kami, dan bagimu amal-amal kamu, semoga selamatlah kamu, kami tidak ingin (bergaul) dengan orang yang bodoh (55)

Dan Tuhanmu menciptakan dan memilih apa yang Dia kehendaki. Sekali-kali tidak ada pilihan bagi mereka. Maha Suci Allah dan Maha Tinggi Dia daripada apa yang mereka persekutukan. (68)

Barang siapa datang (membawa) kebaikan, maka dia akan mendapat (pahala) yang lebih baik daripada kebaikan itu; dan barang siapa datang dengan (membawa) kejahatan, maka orang yang telah mengerjakan kejahatan itu hanya diberi balasan (seimbang) dengan apa yang dahulu mereka kerjakan (84)" (Al-Qashas)

Love,

Me, Myself and God.

16th Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. This post is special I guess. I'm typing with lots of love. From the deepest of my heart. Cause this 16th Ramadhan brought some lessons to me. 

I woke up for sahur. Had the chance to make fried rice. Alhamdulillah. Sadly, I was performing subuh prayer alone, cause Fathin was in the toilet for quite sometime and everyone else are still sleeping. I felt really sleepy to wait for others, so I performed subuh prayer by myself and jumped into my bed afterwards.

To my surprise and full of disappointment and frustration, I opened my eyes at 12. I missed dhuha, I missed my group discussion, and literally I missed the whole day! I was really really and really frustrated that I can't even do anything else. I gave up. The day is over. That's it. I wasn't able to do anything pun. 

I am really disappointed with myself. I laid my body onto the couch and closed my eyes again. I gave up! I kept mumbling and sighing aaaaaa T.T

Then, I remembered that my girls and I are going to have iftar at Islamic International University (UIA) Gombak then. Grrr thank God I managed to get my ass into the shower again, AGAIN! Then, yeap we're heading to UIA. 

As we reached there, the view and the environment were fascinating! We met Kak Khaulah. She bought us some food and so we have our iftar at the mosque. Lots of people there. And the mosque is very huge! During iftar, I saw a Palestine donation and so I gave some. Remember, it's a test from Allah. I don't want to fail it again!

Then, we performed maghrib prayer. There as a short tazkirah after that. The speaker is presentable I could say. His language style memang coolio habis! Rasa nak dengar lagi dan lagi. He talked about an ayat in surah As-Sajjadah where people REGRET after the truth has been revealed from their God, but by that time, everything was too late. He told us not to waste our time. You must ensure things that you do NOW would not make you regret afterwards. You have only NOW. And by now, you should do everything the best that you could. Cause Islam told us to do best and achieve the best in everything. Not to just PASS in something. And there are 2 types of people who regret; 1- They regret, but then they keep improving from time to time. 2- They regret, but they give up. They don't bother to improve cause they believe that Allah has made them that way, so they just want to be themselves without improving anything. So, which one are you? Which one is me? I am that in no. 2 sobs T.T I gave up to things for today. Padahal the time is still there. I supposed could have good zuhur, good asar and the whole good evening, but I gave up so soon. His tazkirah really striked me to the core of my heart. Lessons learnt!

And so then, we performed tarawih. Until 8 rakaat, I moved to the back, cause I usually do only 8. I read quran for a while. Nadia was continuing tarawih. But then, Fathin also joined them. Danggg! They are so tempting! I don't know, but I could feel like Allah is seducing me hahahaha. And I'm afraid to feel REGRET of not doing 20 while I was in UIA (a good place, good environment). Alang-alang dah sampai tempat baik, baik buat benda baik sehabis baik :) Dah serik rasa menyesal, so better join them. Alhamdulillah, achievement unlocked! 

I was smiling when I thought back how tempting the jemaah is, until I succeed to join them haha. After tarawih, we decided to go for food hunting hihi. The night sky is so bright. It was so peaceful. :) So, food hunting begins. I suggested to go to Char Kuey Teow Mali's Corner Danau Kota. Hahahaha. Lama tak makan char kuey teow woi! So, char kuey teow here we come! I was nervous too to reach there cause, y'know Mali's Corner is located in Taman Bunga Raya. I've been there with Izzemal once. It's really near to his grandmother's house. Fuhh. But I thought nothing would happen lahh, Izzemal doesn't like char kuey teow anyway. "Mee mee je lah, mengada nak char kuey teow. Pelik kot kuey teow ni!" Yang pelik here is him actually, kan? Char kuey teow tak pelik okay! #TeamForeverCharKueyTeow Wait, why I talked about him anyway? Next!

We lost the first time finding Mali's Corner. Hahahaha jumpa rumah Cik Mali kat corner jalan rupanya. Gila doh waze ni. The second trial was a success. Jumpa pun! So, yeahh. Mari makan char kuey teow! Again, time time ni lerr, memory came. $#1+ I kept myself to be strong, remember Allah, remember I only want to bring my girls eat, not to bring the memories. Fuhh. But yeahh my girls also are really helping. They make me smile and laugh. They don't even know I've been here with Izzemal. Let it be. I enjoyed the moment. 

After fulling our tank, hahaha we went home. Again, lost here and there. And again, memory came. Izzemal and I usually got time going out together and when it's midnight and we're on our way back to Subang, there were slow songs in the car, empty street and silent moment. I enjoy that moment. I really did. (hahahaha mata berkaca danggg) But things that I thought good for me, might not actually good for me kan. Only He knows while I don't know. But nevermind, that day, Allah let me enjoy the moment again but with my girls. Now I know. He didn't get me into places and situation that I've been before to cause me pain or to reminiscing me back what has passed. He puts me here to teach me that I still could enjoy the moment, such situation with other people, with people that He chose to be there with me, with my girls. :D Cause that good moments didn't come from people, specific people, it comes from Him, through things that He had chosen. Lessons learnt!

So I stopped reminiscing those things. I chose to enjoy the moments that Allah bring to me.

Allah loves me so much, He guided me with many lessons and through many situations. I only need to reflect. That's all. Fuhh.

Today's tafsir;

"Dan alangkah ngerinya, jika sekiranya kamu melihat orang-orang yang berdosa itu menundukkan kepalanya di hadapan Tuhannya dan mereka merayu, "Ya Tuhan kami, kami telah melihat dan mendengar, maka kembalikanlah kami (ke dunia), nescaya kami mengerjakan kebajikan. Sesungguhnya kami sekarang telah yakin" (As-Sajjadah:12)

Love,

Me, Myself and God.

15th Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

Second post. For 15th Ramadhan. Ohh I was at my Mak Long's house. And it's just my mak long and I are the only women that can fast. Yang lain semua cutiiiii. And yup, alhamdulillah managed to do tahajjud. It was really peaceful, cause it's quiet. The others (yang cuti puasa) are still sleeping. 

Ohh today's subuh is not that awesome cause I perform it alone. Usually, there will be me and Fathin who perform solat subuh together. But now I'm not at home. Hahaha rindu pulak kita kat Fathin hiks. So, I gave her a morning text. And she told me she was so sad and frustrated cause she didn't wake up far sahur. Hahaha. Kesian betul. The whole house didn't wake up for sahur. I wonder if there was malaikat coming to our home that time, he might be wondering 'why this house is so dark today? usually it's not that dark like this' hahaha. 

That morning, I went out with Ibu, Adik, Mak Long, Afeefa, Akma and Aina. We went to Jalan TAR. Shopping!!! Girls day out! hahaha. It was really exhausting. Ibu is under that category of 'the most challenging women to dealt during shopping' She walked really fast, and she didn't care about how hot the weather. Power tak power ibu gua ni? Haha. 

Later in the evening, Ayah sent me back to Subang. We dropped by at Bazaar Ramadhan USJ4 first. Ayah kept repeating "ishh mahalnyaaa. beli untuk kakak je lah. ayah beli tempat lain lah" hahaha. What to do ayah, This is Subang Jaya memang ada gaya~ macam hari-hari, hari raya~ Ohh haaa during our food hunting, I saw this one old woman with her daughter on her lap seeking for sedekah. I just ignore her. Soon, as my family and I walked further, we saw them again!!!! The same woman and the same kid! My heart pounded fast. Yang pasti, it might not be a ghost cause it's Ramadhan. It probably really a human or I don't know some kind of test?!! Cause I heard some people told that sometimes Allah tests us by bringing a person (or malaikat) to test us. Well, it might be a test for me to see whether I could give something to those kind of people or not. But, I didn't succeed to give anything to them. And once I thought that thing back, I feel regret, cause I thought I've failed the test. So, next time, whenever you see those people or the opportunity to donate or give something, give anything that you have. Lessons learnt!

Tarawih at surau today was really err merepek? I felt really sleepy for the first 4 rakaat. Thank God, someone is so nice to give tazkirah between the 4th and the next rakaat. I felt little motivated and could continue focus really hard on the next rakaat of tarawih. I'm so afraid to lose the connection to Allah. Cause lately there are so many distractions. Aaaaaa I thought that I'm strong, but I'm actually really reeeaalllyyy weak T.T

Till the next post! :)

Love,

Me, Myself and I.

14th Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

Muahahaha izinkan hamba menulis berderet-deret memandangkan sudah 3 hari blog senyap tanpa khabar berita kakaka. So, hye! This post is for 14th Ramadhan. As far as that I could recall (sorry if the post has recall bias haha), nothing much interesting today. I only remember that I went to iftar with my fellow ex-classmates haha. I chose to wear black jubah cause it's comfy and easy if I suddenly stuck in somewhere or surau that has not enough telekung to supply for everyone, so takyah nak berebut telekung nanti. 

I've promised Teha to be at Kelana Jaya at 4.30 but I end up being there at 6. Walawehh dasar janji melayu! Hahaha talking bout promises, I've encountered to an Instagram photo of fynnjamal which tells about how wrong to make a promise if you can't fulfill it. Cause we don't own the time. We don't own even a second. Allah owns it. Yeap! Lessons learnt.

As we reached Kg Baru, ohhh we're going to have iftar at Stable Steak House tenenenene. The restaurant is amazing. Nampak macam kecik and macam gerai biasa je but the decorations are superb! I've ordered chicken chop, but I felt so regretful afterwards, hahaha cause I should order pastaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I love pasta and their pasta is sooooo delicious I can die!!!!! hahahaha. Ohh I met Teha, Fendi, Fais and Ummi! Aaaaa it has been long time and this year's iftar, there were just 5 of us sobs. But that's fine. Still, lots of stories being shared, laughter and love!

I should've ordered pastaa T.T

This is my lovely Kak Teha

These are Ummi (left) and Fais (right)

This is Fendi :D

Haaa as I've expected, that surau at LRT got no telekung haha! Haaa kan senang, you just need to shoohh people '..tolong tepi sikit~~ cause you got no telekung~' then kau solat je kat situ. After maghrib, we went to klcc to meet Fazuan!!!! Yeah, He's back from US. Dah macam retis kot nak jumpa dia punya payah. Alhamdulillah, He permit us to meet yeayy! Spent little time in ront of the fountain, watching the water dancing in colours with music, so lovely! Ohh and our photographer, Fendi kept doing his job taking pictures here and there. I like to see people taking shots and using their skills in taking photos (except for mobile photography takyah cakap lah, tangkap gambor celah mana pun nampak cantik je). I only took photos for memories and keeping moments haha. So, I don't care if the lighting is not good or what, cause if I see a photo, I see the whole moments, the whole situation in my mind. 

Then, I went to my Mak Long's house cause my family is already there. I went back with Fendi cause his house is in Sg Besi too! Hahaha. We went to BTS by train (1st time get into ERL!! Haha) and then Fendi drove me to Rumah Mak Long. And somehow the situation in the car reminiscing me back to memories with Izzemal. Yeap, I am a person who likely to attach to moments and memories. I hate this feelinggggggg!!!!! Do I miss Izzemal? No no nooooo. I don't miss him. I just miss the moments. probably. I think. aaaaaa T.T 

As I reached Rumah Mak Long, my family members are there, and so family Mak Teh and Afeefa too! Orang ni pulak baru balik dari Cardipp hahaha. Kak Lia je takde. Rindu jugak dengan Kak Lia. And with the courage to not get drifted away, I chose to perform tarawih alone. And I pray for the strength whenever I'm weak, the peace whenever I feel things get complicated, and the guidance whenever I feel lost. I'm that strong the first moment I break up with Izzemal, but sooner I'm getting weak. The memories keep chasing me. 

Shooh memories, shooh shohhh!!! :(

Today's tafsir;

"(Iaitu) Orang yang disebut nama Allah, maka gementarlah hati mereka; orang yang sabar terhadap apa yang menimpa mereka, orang yangmendirikan solat dan orang yang menafkahkan sebahagian daripada apa yang telah Kami rezekikan kepada mereka" (Al-Hajj:35)

Love,

Me, Myself and God.

13th Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

13th Ramadhan has passed. Wooooo laju betul masa!!! Aaaaaa so how was your self-improvement so far? Dah 13 Ramadhan ni. If you think that it's not enough, you're not giving the fullest you could, c'mon!!! Double up your effort bebehhh!!!

So, today I set myself to have a productive day. Hahaha. But I slept late last night cause the house temperature was killing me!!!! Haha. And I woke up at around 5.20. So, I just ate kurma and have a glass of water. But alhamdulillah, succeed to perform tahajjud and witir, phewww!!! Amazingly, I didn't go back to sleep after subuh yeayyy!! Achievement unlocked! Tu pun sebab got things to do regarding my research and I have group discussion to attend at 9a.m. Hari ni sempat dhuha! And yeap, got group discussions blablabla. Ohh I usually much prefer doing things by myself especially when it comes to research and assignments because I like only my own touch. Like, let's say preparing things on Microsoft Word, I like it to be neat and formal and awesome. So, if people didn't give 100%, I don't feel at ease. But nevermind, Allah want me to learn to cooperate with others. So, to reconcile that, I volunteer to do the typing job. Haha. Everything went well. Even at some point, I feel bored because it's not that easy having grouping job, but I tried to reconcile and be patient. Sooner or later, I have to do things and jobs with other people, so I have to practise by now. 

As we finished our group discussion, we went home, and yeahhh here comes the biggest challenge in maintaining productive day!! Hahaha. I spent time on laptop and keep updating myself on Palestine issue. Ohh for those who want to help them, you can donate some by SMS, PALESTIN 1/5/10 and send it to 39111. Simple! Allah already give you the way to show your concern, so start your action! :D

Got some time having conversation with Addin. Hahaha. Seriously, I love this guy so much (as friend of course), no matter how I would be (jadi jahat ke muslimah ke garang ke sopan ke) he will always be there for me, without judging any part of me. 

Later in the evening, I went to surau Al-Bukhary cause I was having iftar there yeayy!!! From the 1st Ramadhan, azamnya nak iftar kat surau everyday, but hampeh! So, it's never too late to do that. I start by today. Ohh I managed to do a good deed then, washing dishes at surau. Yup, washing dishes is my most favourite chores compared to cooking or cleaning or others. Hahaha. 

During dinner, I met 2 Taylor's college students. They're much younger than me. But as usual, I had this stone or gold idk inside my mouth till it's hard for me to approach them. This is how men feel whenever they want to approach a girl. Baru ku tahu. Hahaha. But I thought Allah give me chance to make new friends, so grrr I made it! I made to ask "korang stay mana?" then the conversation continued. ;)

And seriously, I found some other steps of "Plan of Consistency"; #2 - Varies your techniques in ibadah. Sometimes you'll get bored solat by yourself, you don't feel that connection anymore, so please go to surau or be in jemaah! Then if you feel bored doing jemaah, you can try back doing alone. 

#3 - Have your supporting network to always remind you. 

Ohh I forgot to tell you one of my housemates did send me a looooooonggggg text messages on whatsapp, giving advices, soothing my soul and making me smile with tears. She's so sweet. I didn't expect she could be as sweet as that. I cried and smiled reading her texts. She told me not to give up, everyone made mistakes, again and again, use the Ramadhan wisely to seek for His repentance. Thank you housemate if you're reading this. 

I was reading tafsir of Surah Taha. Nice story I told ya! I read it while lying on my bed haha, like reading novel you see. 

Today's tafsir;

Ayat 114 tu Allah told Muhammad not to repeat word by word from Jibril before Jibril finish the whole sentence so that Muhammad can memorize and understand the ayat better!!! :D

"Maka Musa berasa takut dalam hatinya (67) Kami berkata: 'Janganlah kamu takut, sesungguhnya kamulah yang paling unggul (menang)' (68)

Maka Maha Tinggi Allah, raja yang sebenar-benarnya dan janganlah kamutergesa-gesa membaca Al-quran sebelum selesai diwahyukan kepadamu, dan katakanlah kepada Tuhanmu 'Ya Tuhanku, tambahkanlah kepadaku ilmu pengetahuan' (114)

Maka sabarlah kamu (wahai Muhammad) atas apa yang mereka katakan, dan bertasbihlah dengan memuji Tuhanmu sebelum terbit matahari dan sebelum terbenamnya dan bertasbihlah pula pada waktu tengah malam dan pada hujung siang hari supaya kamu merasa tenang (130)" -Surah Taha-

Love,

Me, Myself and God.

12th Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

Hye! I was just finished 11th Ramadhan post. Hahaha. Gila jugak lah buat 2 post sehari. Dah lama tak buat camni. So,yeah! 12th Ramadhan went well. But I think I'm slowly getting drifted away a bit. Astaghfirullahalazim. Let's make post-mortem!

What I've achieved so far;
- sahur and tahajjud (/)
- tarawih (/)
- tafsir (/)
- tadaruus (/)

What I should improve;
- less sleep (sleep early and no nap during day)
- less phone addiction (twitter checked! but others still no) T.T
- get back to Reclaim Your Heart
- need more and more zikrullah

Perhaps you too should analyze back your Ramadhan. So, you don't get drifted away. Ya Allah, help me in consistency!

Okay so, there's nothing much interesting today. Got discussion on research in the afternoon. And ohh we're having iftar with the Sponsorship Unit and the orphans. Great food. And ohh I was wearing Nik's jubah and it's really comfy and I feel like super-muslimah! Ahahahaha. During Isya', I left my telekung with Ros. Luckily, I wear complete proper attire so I could just pray with the jubah. How cool! Well, it's my second time praying in jubah. It's a way of improving my covering of aurat though. Imagine I left my telekung so I need to have proper attire to solat whenever I went out. Surely, I get myself covered properly. Cool right?!

Nampak tak saya yang mana? Yang omey omey tu lahh. Yang mana? Sebab semua comel kan? Haa pandai pandai lah cari! :)

Love,

Me, Myself and God.

11th Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

Hey, miss me? Hahaha. I'm not going anywhere but lately susah betul nak bukak laptop. So, this is the post for 11th Ramadhan. So, what did I learn? Ohh 10 days of Ramadhan has passed, isn't it? Aaaaa. 10 days of rahmat. Blessings! Yup, I think Allah grant me lots of blessings along these 10 days. Detachment, His guidance, great supporting networks, happy family, new bestie and many more. Uncountable!

The 2nd phase of Ramadhan is maghfirah. But yeahh, I think I've went through that phase from 1st Ramadhan where I've detached from things that may bring harm to me. Today, (11th Ramadhan) I think Allah want to teach me on appreciation. How I appreciate His blessings.

Ohh I went to KL to accompany my friend on buying his new shoe. Before I stepping out from house, I managed to perform dhuha prayer first. I don't know. I feel it's incomplete to meet my friend without seeing Him first. Plus, I don't want my friends being the reasons of me getting drifted away from Allah. That's one of the way I learn to appreciate His blessings. I took bus and trains and along the way, I managed to read Al-Mathurat, tadarus a bit and read the tafsir. And the funny thing is, I'm so in love with tafsir of Al-Isra' until I missed 2 stations from where I should stop. Hahahahahaha. Sitting beside me was a woman around 40's nad while I was realizing I've missed my station, I dropped my tafsir on the floor. She was like wanted to help and to give the tafsir but then her hands hold her back. Maybe she was scared to touch it because it's Quran. I found it funny. Because Quran is not only for me, it's for all people. For all human beings. I wanted to say to her "there's no harm to touch it" but I couldn't make it cause I was rushing to run out from the train haha. 

You guys should try to read Al-Isra' because it's like story and you'll surely forget everything once you read it. Hahahaha, but just don't miss your station please! Haha.

By reading Al-Isra' also God tell me not to waste. Waste money. I smiled. I think He's cute and sweet. Like He know I'm going to buy something later. :)

Shopping with Fendi was awesome. He's not like that typical guy who would express that bored face when seeing women go shopping. He's really helpful. He gave his detailed opinions of what should I match the skirt I bought, what colour is prettier. Coolio! Best shopping partner so far!

Later in the evening, Syaira asked me to accompany her and Acap at Sunway. Acap wanted to buy something. So, yeah here I goooooo!!!! 

Great evening. At 10pm, Syaira asked us to join riding the free shuttle bus service. Just want to try something random awesome thing. We thought the bus would go back to Sunway Pyramid so we could take a cab to go home. Unfortunately, it was the last trip (10pm) so we have to hop-off from the bus at South Quay which is like 500m to Taylor's Uni. Hahahahahahaha Now that's really something random awesome! So, we walked along the road to Taylor's. Such a great experience. Not forget to reflect the views and scenery to God. Walking with these 2 nice people, great night view of Sunway with stars and dark sky above us, great feelings! 

As I reached home, I forced myself to perform tarawih. Like I said, no matter how busy and how tired I spent my time with my friends, that tiredness should be put aside, for Allah. If I could make time for my friends, I absolutely could make time for Him. 

Today's tafsir;

I love ayat 15, cause He answers my thoughts on how guilty I am to be the reason of people getting drifted away from Allah. So, He said that every consequence is due to by one's own actions. And a person does not carry other person's sins. 

Ayat 26-27, He told me not to waste much money, cause I'm about to go shopping that time. Sweet :)

"Dan manusia berdoa untuk kejahatan sebagaiman dia berdoa untuk kebaikan. Dan adalah manusia bersifat tergesa-gesa. (11) 

Dan Kami jadikan malam dan siang sebagai tanda (kekuasaan Kami) dan Kami hapuskan tanda malam dan Kami jadikan tanda siang itu terang agar kamu mencari kurniaan daripada Tuhanmu, dan supaya kamu mengetahui bilangan tahun-tahun dan hitungan masa. Dan segala sesuatu telah Kami terangkan dengan jelas. (12)

...Bacalah kitabmu, cukuplah dirimu sendiri pada waktu ini sebagai penghisabmu. (14)

Barangsiapa yang mengikut hidayah Allah, maka sesungguhnya dia berbuat itu untuk (keselamatan) dirinya sendiri, dan barangsiapa yang sesat, maka sesungguhnya dia menanggung sendiri (kerugian) akibat kesesatan dirinya sendiri. Dan seorang yang berdosa tidak dapat memikul dosa orang lain dan Kami tidak akan mengazab sebelum Kami mengutus seorang Rasul (15)

....Barangsiapa menghendaki kehidupan duniawi, maka kami segerakan baginya di (dunia) ituapa yang Kami hendaki bagi orang yang Kami hendaki. Kemudian Kami tentukan baginya neraka jahannam; dia akan memasukinya dalam keadaaan tercela dan terusir (18)

.....dan janganlah kamu membelanjakan hartamu secara boros (26) Sesungguhnya orang yang boros itu adalah saudara-saudara syaitan dan syaitan itu adalah sangat ingkar kepada Tuhannya (27)

Surah Al-Isra'

Love,

Me, Myself, and God.

10th Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

(First thing first, sorry for the late post cause my internet is as slow as snail last night)

Today, I learned about great moments, good friendship! Alhamdulillah. My biological clock works well, except for the nap from 7-11a.m part. Hahaha. But to perform qiyam, alhamdulillah it seems much easier to do now.

After library session in the evening, Syaira, Anne, Azizul, Acap, Syed and I went to Sunway. I just want to accompany Syaira to get her new glasses. MasyaAllah subhanallah allahuakbar, high patience needed to wait for Syaira because she's really choosy. Hahaha. But I don't mind cause every second I spent with her, it's a bless! I appreciate Allah's gift for me. :) Soon, alhamdulillah haha Syaiar found her most adorable glasses that she could find. And I admit it really matched perfectly to her. 

Then, we were having iftar at Chicken Rice Shop. Love and laughter fill the atmosphere. A great moment! Before eating, some of us make a doa first. Meanwhile, I had nothing to ask more to Allah than to praise and being thankful to Him as He grant me such nice friends around me and great moments to accompany me. 

I always and always asked whether I deserve all of these or not but no matter how much I questioned about it, Allah still give me, even more than what I deserve. It is not about what I deserve or what I don't deserve. It's about how nice, how Greatful and how Merciful He is. He would always, and always give more to His servants than what they should deserve. So sweet! And so, I try to stop questioning them and start to appreciate and taking care of Allah's gifts to me. And if someday, He take back all of these, I shouldn't be sad and disappointed, I should be grateful because they are all His, because they are not what I deserve to get anyway. 

So, that's all for today. We were having great moment, especially to have Anne being make-up at Sephora hahahaha. Till the next post! Daa :D

Love,

Me, Myself and God.

9th Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

Salam 9th Ramadhan! How was your iman? How was your nafs so far? Mine were okay. Just need to control from time to time. 

Alhamdulillah I was given the chance to live, to learn, to repent. Succeed to perform qiyam and subuh prayer with my housemate.

Nothing much interesting today. And oohh I skipped a review session today. Haha. The actual plan is to take an-hour nap from 7-8. Hajar woke me up at 8 but then I got back to sleep and when I woke up again, it's already 11.09. The review session started at 11. So, sodaqallahulazim. Hahahaha. Surprisingly, none of my housemate went for the session. Haha. We are truly united aite? Haha.

Ohh today we were having iftar together with all the powerpuff ladies (my girls). Hajar was going to make Rendang! Yummayhhh. So, I helped her doing some kitchen stuffs, while listening to Hari Raya songs. I know, I know it's not Raya yet but I love the air of doing things with housemate, music fills the air, and so with our love too :)

We laughed and laughed. This evening just now, we performed our maghrib prayer together, had pleasure with our own food, and yes love again filled the atmosphere. Ohh and we celebrate Syaira's birthday too! At one moment during all the crowds and laughter here and there, I found a moment which I feel I was in somewhere else. I was reflecting the situation to God.

Isya' prayer seems okay until Ros recited a du'a;

"...ya Allah ampunkalah dosa-dosa kami....ya Allah janganlah Engkau pesongkan hati kami sesudah Engkau berikan hidayah kepada kami..."

Swooosshhhh!!!! I broke into tears. For now, I never asked much. I just pray that God keep this one heart, and never let it go astray. Because if it's not due to His blessings, I would be with those yang rugi.

I enjoyed doing tarawih with my girls. At the end of our tarawih, we asked for forgiveness to each other. That 'I'm-in-somewhere-else' moment strikes again and I feel like I don't deserve all of these. I don't deserve good friends cause I am not one. I don't deserve happy moments cause I didn't appreciate one, I don't deserve for God's blessings and peace cause I didn't seek one. I don't deserve anything.

When I hugged Syaira, she said "..thank you Qila. Allah bagi you masa yang tepat" swwoosshhhhh river of tears flow right away. Damn! I hate to cry in front of them. Aaaaaaaaa 

Puisi untuk Tuhan;

Layakkah aku?
Untuk dapat petunjuk itu, setelah berkali-kali aku berpaling pada-Mu?
Layakkah aku?
Untuk dapat keampunan itu, setelah berkali-kali aku ulang dosa itu?
Layakkah aku?
Untuk dapat kekuatan itu, setelah diri ini sering angkuh?
Layakkah aku?
Untuk dikurniakan sahabat yang bawa aku dekat pada-Mu, setelah berkali-kali diri ini dijauhkan dari sisi-Mu?
Layakkah aku?
Untuk berdiri di kalangan mereka, kerana aku tidak sedikit pun seperti mereka?
Layakkah aku?
Untuk sampai ke syurga-Mu, walaupun diri ini sering berkelakuan seperti ahli neraka?
Layakkah aku?
Untuk dapat kasih sayang-Mu, setelah berkali-kali sayang ini dicurah ke tempat lain?

Today's tafsir;
"Yusuf berkata: Wahai Tuhanku! Penjara lebih aku sukai dari memenuhi ajakan mereka. Dan jika Engkau tidak hindarkan daripada tipu daya mereka, tentu aku akan cenderung (memenuhi keinginan mereka) dan tentulah aku termasuk orang yang bodoh.

Maka, Tuhan memperkenankan doa Yusuf, dan Dia menghindarkan Yusuf dari tipu daya mereka. Sesungguhnya Dialah yang Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Mengetahui" (Yusuf:33-34)

Love,

Me, myself and God.

8th Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

Hey. It's 8th Ramadhan already. How time flies really fast right? Alhamdulillah He grant me another chance to live in this world, to improve myself, to repent from Him. Last night tarawih was awesome. Surrounded by great people, wajah yang berseri seri buat tarawih. :) After 4 rakaat tarawih was done, there was a small tazkirah on hadith Nabi s.a.w. 

".....Bagi orang yang berpuasa akan mendapatkan dua kegembiraan yaitu kegembiraa ketika dia berbuka dan kegembiraan ketika berjumpa dengan Rabbnya. Sungguh bau mulut orang yang berpuasa lebih harum di sisi Allah daripada bau minyak kasturi.”“

The last line about bau mulut orang yang berpuasa tu, there are 3 opinions about this statement. Some u'lama say that bau mulut orang berpuasa ni akan wangi time akhirat, another opinion emm I forgot haha. But the strongest opinion on this statement is that bau mulut orang berpuasa ni usually akan busuk (like my ustaz once said sebab too much acid in stomach), but Allah like this smell and He said that it is better than bau kasturi, means Allah has put those who are fasting at a place as kekasih dia. Even bau mulut yang busuk pun dia jadi suka. Haaaa. Macam kita jugak lah kan, kalau dah suka someone, dah sayang someone tu, bau kentut orang tu pun jadi wangi. Tapi tak semua kan. Kalau dah busuk tu, memang busuk jugak lah cerita dia. But Allah is not like that. He loves you, He loves those who are fasting. Dah sama taraf jadi kekasih dia dah, subhanallah! Terharu kan?

Alhamdulillah. I succeed to perform qiyam today and it was really peaceful. It's like a date, where you can sit with God alone. The whole world seems in silent. Only you and God. You can spill everything, no secrets left. Another interesting part of the day is that I attended a forum on 'Motivasi Ramadhan' by Pencetus Ummah Hafiz, Imam Muda Jabbar, Ustazah Wan Suhaili and Ustazah Yuhanis. 

"Anda semua adalah golong yang terpilih oleh Allah untuk datang. Punya ramai yang duduk area sini, hanya ini yang datang" -PU Hafiz-

MasyaAllah. Rasa terharu sangat. Allah seems loves me a lot. After what I've done, He still chose me to be here. Alhamdulillah. The forum was awesome. I didn't feel tired at all. They're so inspiring. I learned a lot. I learned on differences of fasting according to religions, the benefits of fasting in health aspect and many more. 

Imam Muda Jabbar then told us a story about a man who could change into a drug addict because of a girl. I don't know, somehow aku terasa. Haha. I wondered if Izzemal too was having the same situation? I mean, of course lah dia bukan drug addict (na'uzubillah) but yeahh, maybe because of me, he's also getting drifted away from Allah. MasyaAllah. I felt so guilty. After deep thoughts in the bus, so I pray. I pray for my wrongdoings, I pray for his wrongdoings caused by me, I pray for His guidance to be given to Izzemal to like what He has given to me. I pray that Allah protect me from being a reason to cause a person being drifted away from Allah. Nauzubillah. :'( Yup, your wrongdoings are not only affecting yourself. It might affect others. Lessons learnt. (Projek Memikat Allah for today; checked!)

I rememebered of my unproductive day yesterday and so I thought one of the "Plan on Consistency" would be #1-Attending Majlis Ilmu. It really helps to drive your motivation whenever you feel weak.

In the evening, I joined my usrah group to have iftar at a school done by Ikram. There were tadarus, tazkirah, solat jemaah and ohhh makan dalam talam ramai-ramai. Best! :D

A very productive day today.

Today's tafsir;
"Dan tidaklah mereka (orang munafik) memerhatikan bahawa mereka diuji sekali atau dua kali setiap tahun, kemudian mereka tidak juga bertaubat dan tidak pula mengambil pengajaran?" (Surah At-Taubah; 126)

Love,

Me, Myslef and I.

6th Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

Sorry for the delay on posting the updates. Can't find time to switch on this laptop. So hye! It's 6th Ramadhan and it's the first day I get to fast! Aku baru nampak anak bulan ni. Hahaha lambat sikit.

Ohh I didn't have the chance to perform tarawih but alhamdulillah able to have sahur that morning. I ws so excited to perform solat subuh aaaa how I miss to pray! Alhamdulillah get to perform subuh prayer berjemaah with housemates and it was so overwhelming. I cried, like really cried yang sampai hingus terkeluar semua. Because I know that I'm not a good woman like how people thought I am. I had own skeletons in my closet, and I cried to smell them because they're really really stink. :'( And the moment I got to sujud, I can feel that Allah is there, is really really reeeeaaallllyyy near to me. It feels like hugging a person. That moment, it was really soothing me. I feel peaceful. Subhanallah!

And ohh I had my OSPE exam today. But because I slept late last night so I had to replace my sleep time after subuh. I know I know it's not good but I'm afraid that I would be sleepier during the exam wuwuwu I'm sorry T.T But after tidur tu, I forced myself to perform solat dhuha nak bagi segar. Then, I taught my housemates something on biostats. It's a satisfaction to teach people, even aku tak terer sangat nak ajar orang ni. Siap-siap semua, walk to Taylors because Kimi asked me to study with him. 

Wuishh I thought shower and solat dhuha are enough to make me not feel sleepy but I was wrong. Dah kalau tidur pun takat 3 jam memang tak lahhhhhh!!!!! So, I took 30 minutes nap haha. 

Alhamdulillah He ease me in the exam too. Thank you Allah and all friends who help. :) Yeaayyyy exam is over!!! To end the 6th Ramadhan, I attend an invitation to iftar with PERKIM at Bangunan Felda Jalan Gurney, KL. I thought it's just a small occasion but then I was so surprised to enter the big hall with lots of people, many vvip's and Tun Mahathir also was there. Hahahahaha. 

Alhamdulillah baru frist day puasa, Allah grant me a great event and tonnes of great food for iftar. Hahaha I ate a lot, like really a lot. Nasi, kuetiau, bubur, cakes, fruits, potato wedges aaaaaaa makan macam puaka! Hahahaha. Too bad I didn't perform tarawih aaaaa I hate myself and I want to slaughter myself! That's why aku berat hati jugak nak attend event gini bulan puasa ni cause your attention is on the food, and you forgot who grant you those food totally. What a selfish human being I am! :'O Alhamdulillah sempat tadarus a bit on bus before the iftar. At least, I've done something beneficial today!

Till the next post! Daa.

Love, 

Me, Myself and I.

5th Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

Fuhh *inhale exhale* I was exhausted. A productive day I could tell. Woke up early at 5, managed to make du'a in my bed because it's one of the place where my deep thoughts can be exploded out. Haha. 

Alhamdulillah He eases me during today's exam. Some of questions I could answer but some are not. Hee. Then, research meeting with my group. Blablabla ohh got the chance to study tafsir surah An-Nisa'. Lots of detailed hukum being mentioned there. Take time to digest. And as usual, reading Reclaim Your Heart, which again and again soothing me and knocking this heart. 

Ohh ohh ohh one of my housemates gave me a link on video of tafsir ayat al-quran by Nouman Ali, titled "Boyfriends and Girlfriends" which caught my intention. His explanation about human temptation is absolutely correct. Nabi Yusuf a.s trapped by a pretty woman who is actually his boss. Instead of fulfilling his temptation to the beauty of Zulaikha, he chose to stay pure. And by that, he tried to protect himself. Even Yusuf yang handsome mampus pun pilih to stay pure, kita yang tak berapa cantik ni sepatutnya lagi senang to stay pure. But most of the time, the conditions change. Senang sangat engage to someone totally.  Dah lah tak cantik, tak stay pure pulak tu. Tak malu ke? Kan? *sobs* So thanks so much housemate for such a lovely reminder. :)

I spent the rest of the day with Syaira, as she seems in need of help. Besides, she's one of the factors that keep me to stay strong. Guess what people say that "kata-kata tu doa" is indeed true. Syaira always says that I am a really strong. So, I feel inspired by her du'a (words), unconsciously I am strong, not forgetting the strength is only from Him. Thanks boyfriend! Haha. I really like spending time with Syaira lately, because the more I talk to her, the more I remind myself to God. Guess this is the exact meaning of love for the sake of Allah. By seeing or talking to a person, we feel closer to Him. (skill pikat Allah for today: checked!) Subhanallah! 

One thing that I realized is actually, I really love a person if they say that they love me, I will feel shy. Just like how I feel when Syaira said she loves me hahaha. I feel shy to say "I love you" to my family and my close friends, therefore, they are the ones who I really love. So, basically I don't know exactly what feelings I have time dengan Izzemal cause I don't feel shy to say anything like that. So, I found myself!

I spent the evening with Syaira, talking about future, deep thoughts, deep conversations. It was awesome and peaceful. And Syaira likes it when I talk about the content of Reclaim Your Heart. And me too, like to talk about it to her. The more I give, the more excited I am and the closer I feel to God. Lovely!

Till the next post. Got last paper tmr! Daa! :)

Today's tafseer;

"Sesungguhnya taubat di sisi Allah hanyalah taubat bagi orang-orang yang mengerjakan kejahatan lantaran kejahilan, yang kemudian mereka bertaubat dengan segera, maka mereka itulah yang diterima Allah taubatnya; dan Allah Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Bijaksana" (An-Nisa':17)

Love,

Me, Myself and I.

4th Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

Hey little creatures :D May Allah grant you all His blessings! So, today was 4th Ramadhan. I woke up early, with the intention to make quick du'a (can be considered as qiyam :) ), alhamdulillah I made one. But since everyone dah bangun jugak, seems there'll be lil distraction haha. So the du'a is not that deep. Sebab takut lah pulak orang nampak then tegur kot tiba menangis kang. So, yeah. How I wish if all our doings, we feel like there is someone watching us. But most of the time, we won't feel it. Too sad isn't it? 

But nevermind, I went through my morning well. I smiled all the way to Taylor's. I don't know why but I felt happy. What a blessing! Alhamdulillah. Keep praising Him again and again for the strength and happiness that He has granted. Reached library, prepared to study, then I make another du'a. This one really buat mata berkaca. Hahahaha again, don't know why but my lips keep repeating "thank you Allah. Engkaulah sumber kekuatan, tempat aku bergantung, satu-satu nya yang menolong" (skill pikat Allah for today: checked!) aaaaa k mata berkaca lagi hahaha. It's not that I feel sad, but I was like too happy to have Him right now. No words can't describe this feelings. 

The whole day went well. I was having group discussion with Syaira, Am, Shadow, Kimi and Acap. Great time, alhamdulillah. I'm not the person who like to study in group but I joined them because I'm afraid I would get into unnecessary thoughts suddenly. Even I am the one who was joining them, but I feel like they are the one who came to me, (feels like Allah brought them to me). 

I spent solat time reading Reclaim Your Heart. Keeps filling this heart with the love towards Him every second as possible as I could. And managed to read tafseer from surah Maryam. And managed to had great iftar with the discussion group. I smiled with my heart being surrounded by these people. Yup, smile with heart. I was happy and yes, these people are also a gift from Him for me today. Sweet hee. Even these people don't do much to make you happy, but if you know their presence is by Him, you will be happy. Aku tak rapat pun dengan Am, dia dah lah suka buli aku. But time discussion tadi, it's not that bad. Happy jugak lah. Haa gitu. 

So, basically my day went well. Sorry for the late update and simple post. Gotta prepare for exam tomorrow. Wish me luck! and my friends too. 

Today's tafseer;

"Ibrahim berkata: 'Tidak ada orang yang berputus asa dari rahmat Tuhan nya, kecuali orang-orang yang sesat" (Al-Hijr:56)

Love,

Me, Myself and I

2nd Ramadhan 1435H

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

Hey it's 2nd Ramadhan? How are you and your iman so far? Could you beat the nafs or not? If yes, that's good. If no, go baby! You can do better than this!

So my 2nd Ramadhan was okay but still below my target. I slept during Isya' (as I can't perform taraweeh) until 11 p.m. I don't know why but I felt so damn sleepy astaghfirullahalazim aaaaaa T.T Luckily I woke up at 11, so I managed to study a bit while watching tv.

I'm afraid that I won't be able to sleep back after studying as I've slept for a while. Alhamdulillah He manage to close this eyes before this mind gets into unnecessary thoughts haha. I realized that I was awaken during sahur but my body seems cannot be oriented to move to the kitchen haha. All I could do is like open my eyes, and I think I mumbled something macam "ughhh nak doa please nak doa....doa...aaa...ngantuk...aaa...doa...ya Allah ampunkan dosa aku....mmm" while my eyes still half closed and then I moved my body to other side and continue to sleep hahahaha. 

 

Seriously, I don't know why human body would be like extremely weak kalau period. Tak tahu nak salahkan period or what but I could only do the best that I could. This morning, I woke up and still I got my eyebags. Hahaha pebenda lah siot dah tidur pun eyebags merata??? Aaaaaaa. Took shower and recite mathurat, study, then have time to clean my house, cause Allah told us to do good to our parents kan? :)

“Dan kami wajibkan manusia berbuat baik kepada kedua ibu bapanya, ibunya telah mengandungnya dengan menanggung kelemahan demi kelemahan (dari awal mengandung hingga akhir menyusunya) dan tempoh menceraikan susunya ialah dalam masa dua tahun (dengan yang demikian) bersyukurlah kepada-Ku dan kepada kedua ibu bapa mu dan (ingatlah) kepada Akulah jua tempat kembali (untuk menerima balasan).” [Surah Luqman ayat: 14]

I'm having lunch then hihi and I start loving kurma so much. I started eating kurma last year, after being forced by Izzemal and my father haha. But now, seems it would be my target to eat a kurma a day during this Ramadhan. 

But I still feel something is not enough. So, I recited mathurat after asar and make du'a (a real from deepest side of heart du'a). Few drops of tears streaming down on my face, reminiscing how many sins that I've committed. Allahu. Only He is able to hide those sins from other people, cause if it's not His Rahmah, nobody, no one is able to get close to me due to all my sins.Now, that's made my 2nd Ramadhan complete.

Today's tafseer;

"Hai orang-orang beriman, janganlah kamu mengikuti langkah-langkah syaitan. Barangsiapa yang mengikuti langkah-langkah syaitan, maka sesungguhnya syaitan itu menyuruh mengerjakan perbuatan yang keji dan yang mungkar. Sekiranya tidaklah kurnia Allah dan rahmat-Nya kepada kamu sekalian, nescaya tidak seorang pun dari kamu bersih (dari perbuatan keji dan mungkar itu) selama-lamanya, tetapi Allah membersihkan siapa yang dikehendaki-Nya. Dan Allah Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Mengetahui." (An-Nur:21)

Love,

Me, Myself and I